Hurting

I am wanting to SCREAM……Without Mike, I am empty……He left us June 14th……way too soon……Our future is now only a memory……..DAMN IT!!!!!!!!  Tears are swelling in my heart, and I am trying to stay strong…..I do not wish to anyone near me to feel the burdens and sorrow I feel…..Everything I see now, reminds me of Mike….everything! It is hard….I know he has passed on, but I feel this is all but a dream….I need to go back to the house, but it breaks me down each time I visit…..whats the point? I fear to be alone now…….I have yet to really let go with my sorrow, but not just yet……soon, once the realities of one’s death is settled….Where will be my nest now? I don’t know…..Nothingness is my enemy now…LOST would be an understatement…..Mike was so much a part of who I was…..SCREAM!!!!!
 
I am living in a very surreal bubble right now…..It will pop…and when it does. I hope I will have the strength to go on….
 
No poems for this time….just a moment here to soothe my soul.
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